Tell Me I'm A Wreck...

Speaking of dreams, I had a pretty crazy one last night. And surprisenly, I remembered it all in the morning! :D!

But throughout the morning, I seemed to have a commentator in my head for no apparent reason, going through my dream again. It went abit like this:

"This relationship started like any others. Texts and calls followed by that one blessed day we offically began dating. And the rest of it was typical, seeing each other as often as we possibly could, being loved up within our own world. Planning a future forgetting there is a chance we'll go our seperate ways. And with everything so perfect, there is of course the interfering ex and the evil bitch who tries to seperate us. But this is where my story goes from typical to bizzare.
This story is mine, and my version is where me and a group of friends worked out this crazy love triangle and managed to win him back. Which, believe me, doesn't look easy.
Fancy knowing my story more? Well, I'll tell you, so don't you worry about that."

Personally, I think it'd make a good movie, but too indetail for it to be a book... hmm don't know what to do.

IT WAS AN INTERESTING DREAM TRUST ME!

... I could drive :) xx

Tell Me I'm A Wreck - Every Avenue LISTEN TO IT! :) xx

Annnd The Love Kick Starts Again!

W-O-W!

two months since I've posted?! WOOP!
Well, life has gotten better since then to be honest.

I've kept my Mr. Blue Eyes :'D
And it's offically my longest relationship of Saturday, 2nd October, 2010 :)
Got a sponsorship with a well known (and praised) company based in the north east
I'm the second girl to be sponsored by CPL (Cleveland Potash Limited)
Down side of it all... I'm the only girl in a group of 11... And I'm missing female company.
But not as much as I expected!!

Lad's banter is really easy to put up with surprisenly.
Like today, we all had a conversation about what we'd do if we were a member of the opposite sex for a day, and who we'd turn gay (or lesbian in my case), the guys said they wouldn't, and seemed surprised I wouldn't even turn for Katy Perry.
I love them fellas :')


Well, all in all, life looks PER-FECT-A-MUNDO! :)
lovess xx

Question;

if everythings so perfect... why does it just feel like words?

We Made Our Mistakes

eeee, sat watching Remember Me :)
looking forward to tomorrow :)
actually looking forward to tonight

oh man, if live looked perfect in that last post, my god its gotten better! :D

:D:D
love yassss :D:D xx

:)

Just got my sponsorship... YEY :)
spoken to a fair number of people... YEY :)

lifes looking good... YEY! :)

x

Hmm...

Small and sweet

I think I miss him =\


Help?
I Can Wait Forever - Simple Plan

Doodes Don't Cure Boredum

but adding lyrics to 'em do! :)

I was bored, and the mother got me this magnetic whiteboard, hahahaha
bad mistake mummy :)
like my doodles? I take pride in knowing my drawing extent is stickmen :) but its amusing

Such lyrics on there includes
"I Can Wait Forever" - Simple Plan
"Today I've Wasted Away, For Today Is On My Mind" from Yesterday's Feeling - The Used
]"The Rain - It Never Lies" from The Rain - ForeverInMotion
"I'm Not Kissing You Goodbye" - The Used
"You Look Beautiful Today" from I Can Wait Forever - Simple Plan
and the longest one
"This Scene Is Dull Devine
Enimies, They Start Surrouding Me
Mostly In My Head Cause I Swear,
I've Never Been So Depressed" from "Let's Get Outta Here" - Madina Lake

i cant explain what made me doodle it
but it killed bout 10-15 minutes

xx

Going Undergrounnnnnd

hehehe, yes, i went to a mine yesturday
and i proppa enjoyed it
im gunna be gutted if i dont get this sponsorship :P

had a good day too, went to see a friend of mine, then met afew friends of his,
had a joke, mentioned how we aint seen eachother in like, 9-10 months and how twas gurd seeing eachother again :)

hahaha,
oh well, :) had a good day so thats all i care about

lovess xx

Time To Contemplate

Well, I finished school 3 weeks ago (myy godd!)
And I'm seriously bored with nothing to do... at all.
It's starting to feel like I'm about to waste away.
Goddammit
I shouldn't be left to contemplate
I mean come on! I'm off school and I'm using long words, that's how bored I am!

Well... I've finished two Harry Potter games (The Order Of The Pheonix on difficultly levels one and two then The Half-Blood Prince, becoming master of dueling in all four houses), watched all the Shrek movies (four in cinemas then 1, 2 and 3 in order at home) and the Toy Story trilogy IN ORDER.
I have a feeling I might end up watching all the H/P movies in one go, then the Lord Of The Rings if I'm not careful.

I JUST HAVE SWEET F-A TO BLAADY DO! :(

Man, this month and half better hurry up.
I'm sick of waiting around doing nothing all day.
Hopefully in September I'll have a nice sponsorship :)

much loves
xx

Contemplate [verb - to think seriously (about): I was contemplating (= feeling inclinded towards) having a holiday. She contemplated her gloomy future]

P.S Naka... I ain't a perv... I'm just happily single looking at peeps
;) :')

p.s.s - a prom photo for yerrs :)

And I'm Singing To My Feet Yeaaaaaaah

... yeah im bored
man... two months off, how to kill THIS time?!
ive made a outline of a rat cage... at least
and ive got myself a nice saw mark in my leg :) i swear it actually looks hilarious

and im considering making xmas lights :)
then im going underground next wednesday
and in the meantime, im hopefully gunna go annoy some amigos :)

anywho, this morning, i was gunna be lazy n stay in bed, but i thought of this and ultimately, had to get out of bed n note it down
im hoping to pull in dear friend Naka n several others, n either recording a song (cover or to lyrics wrote by me or other amigos)
or a music vid (again, either a cover or to one we've just recorded)

might be a nice project eh?! :P
comment if yerr wanna join into it
or post again if yerr want more people into it
i think itll be shimmy shimmy funable :)

well, i will be offski to go do what my mother just suggested...
PVA glue... water... ratcage... waterproof
does that woman know not to give me ideas?!


Saturday - Kids In Glass Houses
someone wanna come see these live again with me? :P

Touch of Conscience

Before I decide to post this recent lyric fanaza, I must begin with something I think certain people should read, and after you've read it, I hope you realise who it's about.
And if you do read it, and your aware they havn't, please pass on the message?

I no longer use windows messenger, so it's not like I can use that to pass on the message. But knowing their both bloggers, I'm hoping they'll get the message this way.
I'm sorry for the previous comments, I swear it was the alcohol, and I just never had the confidence to admit what I did was wrong.
I realise it was wrong, and that no matter how bad the depression is - it still can be difficult to deal with. I guess I'm used to dealing with mine because I've had it for several years, forgetting that the older you get it, the harder it can be to cope with.

So like I've said before, I'm sorry for the previous comments and take it all back. I guess the only reason any of us really have blogger is to get some sense of attention we lack in the real world. So basically, I believe that everyone has an attention seeker inside them, some small and some just huge (most possibly like their ego).
But majority of times, it's mistaken to be bigger than it really is. Which is why I'm saying sorry, for mistaking yours when you were simply informing us of your recent decision.
Also, I apologise for offending your sibling then having ago at you. I understand now that you must stand by-side them you care about, as they'll one day take your back when your too weak.
Mentioning that line, I must say a massive THANK YOU to my friends and family, who stood by me when I was too scared to even be in the house by myself.

I hope this says alot, I just had a sudden touch of conscience... and this song may reflect that, but I believe that the title goes well with it. So here it is.

Touch Of Conscience

I'll be your forgiven nightmare
The bittersweet daydream
I might begin to haunt the dark
But I celebrate within your smile

Playful but carefully
Whisper sweet loving sins
And release us to the sky
This is where my skill plays in

I swear I won't crash and burn this time,
Maybe I don't belong around here,
But your my biggest challenge to stay for.
This can either make me or break me,
I won't know until I've tried.

Smile of beauty but a kiss of death
Your dying wish is my living pain
Just think - love carries us forever
And hate only takes us six foot deep

I swear I won't crash and burn this time,
Maybe I don't belong around here,
But your my biggest challenge to stay for.
This can either make me or break me,
I won't know until I've tried.

The hope hidden in the twilight fades
Leaves behind the torment of the dusk
I'll win you back whatever it takes
Loosing you will only strengthen my lust

I promise I'll try stay sane this time
But the area holds nothing more for me
You kept me here just to let me fall
This can either make me or break me
We'll never know until we try.

I swear I won't crash and burn this time,
Maybe I don't belong around here,
But your my biggest challenge to stay for.
This can either make me or break me,
But we'll never know until we try;
Until we tried

Aled Sean Matthews :)

I IS GETTING A RAAAAT!
I IS GETTING A RAAAAT! :):)
haaha

my mates giving me a large hamster cage (hopefully big enough for a rat)
and if not, its going to our lol who wants a hamster :P

BUT IM GETTING A RAAAAT! :)

and as the title says, yes hes getting called Aled Sean :)
it grows on yerr trust me
but hes gunna be called Aled all the time :)
if hes naughty, Aled Sean Matthews :)
cute eh?
ill get a photo asap xx

So much for a "Secondhand Serenade" ...

DID ANYONE KNOW JOHN VASEY (founder of Secondhand Serenade) ACTUALLY GOT DIVORCED?!

it happened 2008!

man im in shock!

however

HIS NEW ALBUM IS EXPECTED SOON

WHEY FUCKING HEY :D:D:D

he currently has two albums up to date
Awake - completely acoustic and by himself

A Twist In My Story - he got a band (including his brother Lukas) and it was mostly about his divorce

new album is Hear Me Now

i issa buzzing

you can hear Reach For The Sky acoustic on youtube,

Something More (in another post) the offical single

and You Are A Drug which is the like the B side of that single

their all so cute tbh :):)

i think this album is a deffo review hehe

btw, congrats to Naka :) she wont know what for while im posting this xx

yerr know

i give up
after four n half pintso carling
halfa pinto blackthorn
and four shots
i finally give up
have a perfect live everyone
i dont fukcing care anymore

NA-FUCKING-NIGHT

New Singles!

:):) yapp! i know of TWO so far, so sorry bout the high buzz

Secondhand Serenade - Something More

and then

Avenged Sevenfold - Nightmare

and one single which i can listen to again and again

Kids In Glass Houses - Matters At All

lol i actually need to stop with KIGH... everytime i listen to it, i can see two people together... who i dont want together... who aint even together... if that makes sense? :)

hahaha ill be honest, insanity might be getting the best of me atm, but ah well, ill come through it like i always do
its getting hard to admit to it though, but i aint gunna start ranting and raving bout life with depression, insanity or hysteria here yerr know?

... im saving that for the loony bin HAHAHA :) xxx

CUTIE!

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

Animal Colours

i swear i have a certain thing with certain animal colours
i mean, theres this colour (i dunno the technical name)

Dun/Buckskin - golden with black mane and tail (depending a strip between the two)

and then theres a bay (brown with black mane and tail)

and the Shar Pei... i dunno, i think their cute too haha

now we know what weird animals/colours i like :) hahha

oh and that cat that Naka was laughing at for nearly falling off the wall! :)

Cutie Photos :)

Fox is a common name for many species of carnivorous mammals belonging to the Canidae family. Foxes are small to medium-sized canids (slightly smaller than the median-sized domestic dog), characterized by possessing a long narrow snout, and a bushy tail (or brush).

Members of about 37 species are referred to as foxes, of which only 12 species actually belong to the Vulpes genus of 'true foxes', most common being the RED FOX.

And people HUNT these animals? Personally, I think their way to cute.

OHH MYY! ALAN RICKMAN!

... uh sorry, im watching Robin Hood
offt Kevin Cosner
offt Alan Rickman

meanwhile, i had my first exam today
went kinda well
slightly pissed off with aloada random stuff, otherwise its all good

plus! my friend naka has beena doodling in my leavers book, so ill put the photos from that on here one day

ill post when i got summet interesting
but new A7X single is out, i need to listen to that

"Hello Vyvyan!" "... Oh... Hi Mum"

hahahaa :)
this is kinda all ive done today
sleep, movies and young ones :)
man, i hate being off :(
i feel like shit but i feel so blaady bored!

dude i really wanna make a cake
but i dont think ill be allowed :(:(:(:(

so yerr know what im gunna do...
sweet eff-a
but watch The Young Ones

well.. head hurts :) so i might just sleep again
and no-one actually noticed i was off :P apart from one complete toss hahaa
who woke me up...
so ill be having ago at him tomorrow
xxx